Thursday, October 19, 2006
{ 12:16 PM }
CONGRATULATE ME for my stupidity, (no, I'm smart).
I know perfectly well that I live in a world of self denial. I like it and what can you do?
Stop trying to convince me,
I'm not listening.
Save your saliva,
I'm really not listening.
Argh.. And now Chemistry has or rather, will pull my Science grade point down. Stupidstupidstupid.
Yeah, blame it on my brain and eyes. I read the graph wrongly and POOF there goes a mark. Blame it on the invigilator. She calculated the time according to her watch and ahah, i was so totally confused about when to hand up my paper. I rushed when there was at least 5 minutes to complete the last question and I shall hope against hope that I read the question correctly. I feel bad.
Ohwells, I ought to be glad that i only started mugging yesterday and i was able to answer the whole paper. I love my brain. I can just simply memorise the points word for word and then just regurgitate (wow, big word) everything. Geography was surprisingly easy. Perhaps cause i studied for it. Yes, i spent time reading my textbook and notes. It certainly paid off. Gee..
I have ran thus so far. Only to find a dead end.
A day more and everything would just crumble down, both in joy and in sadness.
I have reached the last lap and I guess it's just time to speed up.
Exams will be FINALLY over; I completed yet another marathon.
The time I clocked would be simply a year-- a very long yet fast year.
2 months of rest and yes, I would be prepared for the start of another race.
A level up in the game of life, a step leading up to greater heights.
6 remaining years till 20; 6 more years to achieve my goal.
Take my words, baby, I'm going to start 2007 anew.
butithoughtwasadream;
thingsiyearntoremember;
--acrossmymemory
{ 5:59 PM }
Untitled
I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain
Chorus:How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
the night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
the night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
the night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
"Good things certainly have a way of falling apart."
What a way to end a composition.
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Where were you when i needed you the most?
It's overpowering me.
I am barely clinging onto dear life.
Where were you?
I am just so tired.
Quit playing the game for two.
You stole my heart and ran away,
leaving my tears to fall like rain.
I didn't wish to bring up past memories but..
I simply just LOVED you.
Don't you understand?
The blurred image of you,
flicker in my mind everytime i hear this song.
Look at the scars (literally and figuratively).
I'm only tirteen and yet,
time has showed mercy.
It made me wait.
A year, two years, three years, four years?
Don't let it become eternity.
My patience has it's limits..
You changed my perspective of you.
Get out of my life.
No, how could I
have become so harsh?
Turn back boy,
and let's start all over again.
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I have no idea what i am saying. =.=" It's just how i feel.